Words can’t even begin to describe how much I miss you. Everyday is a struggle. I try my hardest to put on this smile and go on with my day. No one knows what it feels like to be in this situation. I tried so fucking hard, I really did. No one said that it would be like this one day. All I want is you, but you won’t even give me the time of day. I’m always the one running back to you. One day I wish that you could see how hard I tried to make this work. I want to know why, just why did this all happen? I regret every second of it. But you do not understand how hard this all is for me, you could give two shits about me while if anything ever happened to you, I would be there in a heart beat. I hate how you can be so fucking happy and I am just miserable. No matter what people tell me, I will still blame myself for everything. I know I fucked up, but I just want to be with you so bad. I would do ANYTHING to be in your arms just one more time. I just wish you knew what it was like to be in my situation.
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